one too many

i don't know why but I wanted to try it, I shouldn't have. now, I regret doing it. I'm fucked I don't know what else to say.

like people use to tell me all the time, live life to the fullest, you've only got one life. and sure thing I did but it turns out I made the wrong move. I wish there was a referee in my life, to tell me what to do. blow the whistle if I make a wrong move, encourage me when I do the right thing. but no there isn't, too bad for me I guess.

I think it's time I start thinking what I'm suppose to be doing. I took the wrong stairs to success, big deal, I can't help but peek at that exit saying come in. yes, I get distracted too. I'm only a human being after all. I may have stayed too long and I know I have disappointed a lot of you guys but trust me, I'll never make the same mistake again.

I learned my lesson the hard way and yes I will try to earn your respect for me again.