everything happens for a reason

I can still remember the blur, the feeling, the crushing physical pain that shocked through my heart...the numbness. I wondered what was wrong with me, change my mind in what seemed like an impulsive instant.

I felt so alone. But eventually, piece by piece, I started to come together again. Time was my glue, along with amazing friends, self reflection and planting seeds of joy that were not dependent on external variables. I'm happy and proud to say, that those seeds have really started to sow.

And in my heart, I feel content. Before, I was always either looking for someone, with someone or missing someone.

For the first time in my life, I am happy being just I am. I have learned that no matter how much you love someone, you cannot lose yourself and change the person you once were.

When something doesn't work out according to plan, it's natural for us to feel upset, but when you get through it, you realize how one door didn't open because you were meant to walk through another.